I know it’s way too early to think about moving on, but I’m more concerned about having to. I am concerned that my nerd may never be mine again. I often think about how she can live without me, go through the worst of the worst and not reach out to me. What if she doesn’t ever NEED me again? This is the question that ia driving me up the wall. I don’t know why I am thinking about this, but I am. Ugh! I am really hating this. I don’t want to do this anymore.