I’m out with my mom for her birthday, but I can’t really focus. I keep thinking about my nerd, which is making me feel bad because I should be enjoying my mom. Yea, I am really sucking right now. My nerd is just going through so much right now and I really don’t care if she is with someone else or not-maybe she is, but she’s not with me; being consoled by me. I can only hope and wish, she is holding it together.