Today has been a horrible yet enlightening experience. I no longer feel I owe my nerd anything. As we have gone through tonight and secrets got revealed, things that have hurt me, I realize I can shoulder the blame for us breaking up, but she has to take blame for us not being together. We are surrounded by so much deception, even when I say I can be totally honest about my present life, she can’t be. I found out yet again of another encounter with a guy around New Years when I was trying to work things out with her, loving her sexually and mentally. Oh well such as life, karma always comes back around ten-fold and I’m just reaping what I sowed. Who knew karma could hurt this badly.