So I’m thinking that I may have to adjust my 30 mark goal. I can empathize with people that want children and can’t have them. I can because I can’t have them either, maybe I can, but just not right now. I always wanted to have a kid and marry my child’s mother. Have a real family for once in my life. It hurts me as I get closer to this milestone and I’m forced to be single; virtually have to start over without love being guaranteed. Who knows how long it will take to find compatibility again. More importantly, love and I have never been able to fall in love with just anybody. It takes awhile–actual variables being decided and wheels turning in my mind. In the last 11 years I have only been in love twice and the last woman, I would have died for. Can I really duplicate this and/or gain a new appreciation for someone else in time?