Tonight in therapy, we explored various facets of depression. and it has been noted that I’m beyond the notion of being just sad. Which I already knew of course. I don’t know what I am and the only reason I say I’m depressed is because it is the only commonly, widespread term that I know where others may be able to related. Do I feel depressed most of the time? NO. I feel something else that I can’t really put into words. I can’t really focus and think about what is really driving me nuts. The one thing that I am certain of is my relationship with my ex and that is why I talk about it because it is easy to do. I always have loved talking about her; here, it is just a different context. My issue(s) extend far beyond that and I’m quite sure of it. I just don’t know how to deal or manage with anything else, because although it exist, I can’t quite pinpoint it in actuality. Probably doesn’t make sense to most, but it sure makes sense to me.