This is definitely weighing heavy on me. I miss having someone there all the time that loves and appreciates me for me. I have been trying to branch out, but my anxiety is getting the best of me. Immediately when I got in the house, I popped a pill to calm down. I was literally on the train watching my life go by. It was like I was looking at the slideshow of an unhappy child, teen and now adult. Something really needs to give. I’m losing my mind over here.