I should have plenty to be thankful for this year–the reinvention of a spirit that has been broken and scarred since childhood has been very tough mentally to address but I have. So many emotions I have overcome to finally start addressing the problem (and I have few folks I can thank for that). I guess I have always been unappreciative though; always looking for more or the next big thing, dubbing myself the ultimate opportunist. This is just different. I feel my unhappiness in the pit of my stomach. So much so, I’m feeling sick right now.
The holidays and everyday for that matter, should be spent with people that fill your heart the most and while I am thankful for the new additions in my life, I still cherish and love, with everything in me, the ones I can no longer touch. That, alone, brings forth a pain that I can’t escape.