Not sure what the proper protocol is for loving women I have been in relationships with, obviously. However, Veronica is different. She always has been, I just didn’t know how to show it completely when we were together.
This is all coming from multiple places; I woke up this morning thinking about her and the love I feel for her alone (not Kahlo and Piper. I often group my feelings for them together so I don’t have to focus on it too much). My continued progress in dealing with my emotions has also increased my objectivity. I don’t want to seem disrespectful by texting or calling her saying I love you. This is totally based on my improvement in assessing myself and feelings. I realize that I don’t love a lot of people so to erase someone that I do, hurts so much. Again, how I feel about Veronica is unlike any other; my ability to feel something without anger has shown me that. I constantly worry about her safety and whether or not she is happy, and I contain my love for her out of respect for our relationships with other people.
I don’t want disrespect anyone, but I love her so much so, I should be able to tell her. I guess another issue is I’m not sure if she even cares about me at all, at this point. That’s another post though.