When I love, I take it to the extreme, going above and beyond, no matter the cost to me physically and mentally. The problem has always been that I can’t my love for one, for another. When I love a person, I love them without restriction, whether it’s a family member, friend or significant other. In the past 2-3 years, I have questioned how significant a woman has to be for me to love her above everyone/everything else in my life and it is one of the very few times my mind runs blank. No question, I have a problem with being open, allowing others in, therefore, my love is only given to a select few. Once they have it, I can’t take it back; trust me, I have tried. It has single-handedly ruined my best connections, leaving my life out of order. I can’t help what I feel or what I think, which, at this point, is doing more harm than creating any positivity in my life. Everyone wants the top of the pedestal; to feel more special than the next. I just can’t quantify like that nor can I let go and my heart cracks everyday because of it. I’m just at a loss on how to change or if I even should or could. How can it be a mistake to love without limits no matter the individual?