Perfection

Perfection

the tingle
of sweat downpouring
pass eyebrows slanted
down 
wiped with hands rough
callous from a labored load
I stand alone
waiting for the caress
that I could only dream
about since I was 13 years old
firm with the smell of Old Spice
I’m open to anything now

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Last Days

I’ve been here before
walls crowded
with chatter
broken to bits
by bulldozed anger
rage of a different kind

a heart fragile
a mind overwhelmed
fingers lay unfolded
as hearts become broken

eyes once fiery
with affection
now turn amiss
at the sight of me

at the height
of our extinction
I glanced at her
once more

a love uncomplicated
laid to rest

Marriage Questions

Marriage Questions

if I got down
on one knee
to confirm
the happiness you bring me
would you laugh
and think I was crazy?

what if I told you
we couldn’t live
up to my first proposal
of the past
would you still want
me to ask?

would you mind
if I couldn’t love
you pass all of my regrets
and the tears my dreams
don’t let me live down?

could you really believe
you are my everything
when another lingers
in my shadow?

could you really believe
in a broken me?

I Only See You

I Only See You

straddle me
with your confession
as I feel flimsy
make me sturdy
with your drill gun

shove me
into your gratitude
undress my layers
kiss me
all over my acceptance
and make me cum
with your emotion

out in the open breathing
for the first time
budding heart resting
on your chin
as Luther serenades
society’s noise
I. only. see. you

Honest Healing

Honest Healing

love ripped apart
the core of my compassion
slipped on peels
of my own skin shedding
under the weight of my blade
pounds dropped  eyes sulken
at the sight of you breathing
healthy at the height
of my pain

I’m ashamed to call
you a first for so many
bled out causes to keep
my soul smiling
in the face of your vindication
use these tears to clean
up your betrayal
want to stain your satin sheets
with this putrid grease leaking
out of my confession

sold my broken pieces
to the devil
squandered  the proceeds
on a quick fix
to snort Coke
with the aforementioned
saving my soul
for the burn
now
I can breathe deep
and again
love in a lie