Is Anything Sacred Among Exes?

Like I get it. Right, you go for what you know–whether it’s with someone you’re just sleeping with or someone you’re in a new relationship with, but there are things that I personally hold sacred that I would not do with just anyone.  There are some things that are reserved for people that I’ve fallen in love with.  The way I have sex with them, certain things I do with them, all sacred and unique to only them.  Am I wrong for feeling like everyone should think this way?  If not, then what really makes me special, if it’s being done to and on every guy after me?  Doesn’t sound like any love being a part of sex to me, just plain fucking–have I ever just been deemed a fuck toy by someone I loved?  That’s a question, I would probably never ask an ex for fear of what the honest answer might be.  I just would have never imagined that, but then again, I guess I can’t hold everyone to standards of my thought processes and feelings.  Just something else to wrap up and keep to myself.